Another Year and a New Chapter

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Monday was my 41st birthday.  Many times I was asked, as we all are on our birthdays, “how does it feel to be another year older?”  The canned answer given was “no different.”   And that is mostly true.  However, aside from “feelings” I can honestly say that I AM different.  The past few years have not been kind to me in many areas.  Some were my fault, many were not.  But through these struggles, I have been incrementally changing in fundamental ways.  It’s not in the easy times that we grow, its in the tough times that force us to re-examine our attitudes and propel us toward inner change.  And so, I’ve learned how better to deal with the curve balls that are thrown my way.  And I have a renewed sense of purpose that has been lacking for a while.  At my core, my heartfelt desire is to be used by God to bless others, to love my family in a way that they feel that love in their inner most being, and leave that legacy of love and servant leadership behind me where ever I am.  Many good changes are up ahead this year, and my time in the valley are what has prepared me for it.  It’s so easy to dwell on the negative, but I am choosing each day to focus on my blessings in life and those far outweigh the bad things.  So, here’s to being 41:  A new year, a new chapter, and I’m so blessed beyond what I deserve.  I’m thankful for each day I have and intend to make the most of it!  I’m beyond grateful for my amazing kids, my family, friends, and loved ones.  Here’s my big public praise to God for all He has done in my life!

Exciting News

Today I officially signed contract for broadcast media and commercial print with The Clutts Agency! I’m so thankful for this opportunity and am excited to work with a reputable agent who just celebrated their 20th anniversary in business! Things are starting to look up. Please be sure to like/follow The Clutts Agency and watch for updates on future projects on my website!

Perseverance

The ups and downs and the ebb and flow of life can be quite a roller coaster.  We set our sights on achieving our dreams and plot a course to get there.  Sometimes our fears keep us from even beginning and we settle for less.  And sometimes we allow others to dictate or distract us from pursuing what we think we were meant for.

The past couple of years have been nothing less than immense changes in my life.  Many were difficult and some were painful.  However, some were long overdue and life altering.  I’ve not shared this with hardly anyone, but there was a time a few years back I was living out of my car for a short time.  I didn’t know where I would go or what I would do, but I persevered and eventually rebounded in a stronger position than when I had started.  I was moving in the right direction.  Then late last year I lost my job.  It was a soul crushing punch to the gut.  My sense of worth and accomplishment were tied to my career, and losing that threw me into a depression.  Which looking back, I think that was the point.  I needed to learn to differentiate my sense of self with my career.  And while I’m still far from achieving my dreams and goals, I know I’m on the right path.  I’ve been able to accept more work on commercials and television, than I ever would have been able to before I lost my job.  And then just a few weeks ago I got a new agent, which I know will open even more doors for me.  I’m far from having arrived, but I’m moving in the right direction again.

Progress comes day by day.  Never give up.  It’s so cliche to say these one-liners but there’s a lot of truth there.  There were days I felt so hopeless.  But then often the very next day something would come along and reinforce my optimism.

I try to teach my kids the lessons that I had to learn the hard way.  Figure yourself out early, reach for your dreams, set a course and follow it, but most importantly be true to yourself at all times.  And when life gets tough, which it will, always persevere.  Because things will get better.  It’s always darkest before the dawn.